Lamentations

So this is the end of the month. Already a vacation in, finished two concurrent courses Math, and Intro to programming, and moved onto the next phase of college learning Prob and Statistics. To mince words on how I feel about this course is mute point, I just believe in a stronger ethic in correspondence. Alas I'm the outlander when it comes to real this discourse.

As May nears the end of its 2011 run, I'm taking a little time to myself this year to just be. I've tired of the mundane, the idiotic, and emotionally draining people this side of the west. I'm not really interested in the vacuum of complacency, which ill affords me the opportunity to sit and idle. So, I've pushed onward, looked in the mirror and am accepting who I am. Either it is or it isn't. There is no more underlying messages to be had. I've bore very little fruit in this endeavor. Its time to focus on the real, and believe that way. There are always going to be walls placed in my way, I've had to struggle with each movement I've made. If this gives too much out there then so be it.

I've lost a lot of great people, and gained a few by pulling me in a direction I've not been comfortable. I've endured a ever lasting embarrassment. I've toiled over the misbegotten, and forgotten nothing. I walk with each step, slow, methodical, and sometimes unsure. If there is poetry in my existence then I'm living how I can be. There are no retries from now on. I can't start over again. I cannot tare down and re-examine. I must move along to where I need to go. With Peggy's passing last year, many things have become more focused in my hindsight. I've had some weird times, but I've had some good ones. 2011 is shaping up to be a year the lessons I've learned prior, and to adapt accordingly. I'm to take each skill and use it, find a place I can mingle and live the best I can. The cynical attitude, the break it before it hurts me doesn't work now. Its a struggle, but I'm learning. The paradigm ahead of me is already laying waste to that came before, I must figure a way to survive.

The talk of serfs and upper class is ringing very true. The fact I'm reading about the battle lines drawn, the cleansing of the poor classes, while instigating diversion is unsettling. A new kind of distortion is arriving, its how you, and everyone else will either survive, or wither. 1995 is a long time ago, but what was seen then is coming to pass now, and I hope that it won't end the way I foreseen.

Thanks for reading.

B.

Dark reaches, and the Tethering of unified support

Entering a new chapter, an unknown for me. The road I've been on, is slowly coming up to an intersection. I have a decision to make, and though I've been on this journey, I've been plodding along. By August, things will be a little more clearer. But for now two courses which have been a bane, are now completed. I feel somewhat indifferent, but satisfied. Its over, and now the road before me is of wonder, and excitement. Indeed these are interesting times to be alive.

Shoving off to the East was an interesting experience. Traveling east was different in that it was farthest I've gone before. That the time there was curiosity, met new peeps, and just hung out. Besides having to be up at the crack of dawn which at this time of year is around 4:30am, I might have slept to about 7. No later. Downtown is pretty cool, like the old school feel to the place. Streets were like driving off road. Alas, we'll be back soon, but could be later in the year.

So the big news still is the network from Sony. It finally came up this weekend, only to the limited capacity of Sony's doing. Alas, I've spent a portion of my time focusing on my finals, reading intermittently about the network debacle. Otherwise there is a lot of opinions on the subject, and I feel its subjective to the over all problems, who's right, who's wrong, etc.

Each opinion carries with its own undercurrent of either keen or vitriolic observation. The only issue I have with some of the paid contributors are the expected rights to online access to first person shooters, or multiplyer games. Not only that, the purported (conspiracy) deception Sony is evoking is spoke like its per fact. I'm not disputing the network attack was a good thing, nor did I evoke armchair posturing either. Sony's reluctance to respond publicly, resulted in a huge damage control from their PR head, and a lack of transparency, clouded a very terse situation.

No one was hurt, or killed. But, information was obtained, and could be used for nefarious means. The fallout from the debacle, has given rise to bickering, and badmouthing everything Sony does. I want to punch these people for being so mendacious, and maniacal. No one has given rights to anything but their own person. I just would like to see a little more balance in the coverage, not so much hysteria over something very trivial. Alas, I'm in the minority when this stuff arises. Sigh....

Kids have the know how, and fortitude to decrypt anything they can get their mittens upon. There also is the need to over react to the downing of a service that isn't exactly free. In essence people pay for their service providers network to utilize the network Sony puts out freely. There are certain perks to having a console mostly as a entertainment device, or a coders box. The only discernible aptitude the cats who tinker is to see what will it take to break the box down. Fortunately, and if there is honest scruples with the community, that none of the stuff taken will be used illegally, or in malice.

Thanks for reading.

B.